Commitment to the process

It’s not easy trying to become a good content creator. I know this is no revelation to any who read this and are content creators, but I just wanted to lay that out as a starting line. Content creation, THE PITS of the game. But I really do love it.

I know something about myself that makes this new path I’m on so hard for me.

I have trouble committing.

Not to people of course! I do that well enough. (Love you, hubby.) But to projects that take long term effort and have even longer-term possible gains…. I fail hard at that. It’s discouraging to put your all into a project and feel like there is little to no return, engagement, etc. But I thankfully managed to figure something out about this whole new path I am on. I need to do this for no one else but me. Time frames are set by me. If my interest in a project changes, I owe it to no one by myself. And the pressure starts to lift, allowing the joy of the work to breathe. This was a way too important realization for me that I should have realized sooner. I only share this in the hopes that if you have the same trouble as me, you can gain something from my bared soul here.

I loved creating fake tv shows in ACNH, I really did. The drama, the love, the story unfolding. But I let myself get wrapped up in the numbers. And I let the stress of the schedule strangle my spark. So I’m going to try something different. I will try making my next project strictly because it brings me joy! Let’s see how this goes…